Sta.sh
I am Orange Socks.
Some have asked "Are you saying that you're a dead woman thrown in a ditch wearing only orange socks"
I reply "Why of course my literal oaf of a friend, that is entirely my intention. You fucking piece of shit, why would you want to live if you're so fucking stupid?!"
What I mean is, I am Orange Socks, I am nobody, I have no identity, no name, I am nothing.
If I am nothing, I am everything.
If I am everything, I am omnipotent.
If I am omnipotent, I am God.
Ergo, Orange Socks is God. Not literally of course, God delusions and other miscellaneous misconceptions/hallucinations of power are for the weak willed unable to accept their situations in life.
I am a blood artist. Casey the blood artist, alias Jack Crowley is considered by many to be the first blood artist. While we appear to have much in common, "Casey the blood artist" is my mortal enemy, the childish bastard believes that I am a "17 year old fag emo kid" and that I should kill myself
Very impolite, he blocked me from his deviant page and proceeded to plaster mine with various profanities (ranging from "go suck a salted dick and die" to "kill yourself and your family").
He uses the blood of rattlesnakes, other people and when he does use his own blood he has it taken out with a needle by a nurse. I pointed out that this was weak, real men use knives, use their own blood and toughen up to the pain of the blade, not needles like the ones children are given so that they don't catch colds.
He didn't like that very much, so he has made it a point to insult me for his own simple amusement and pleasure. Casey, I am the first true blood artist.
Orange Socks will be the first true blood artist. There are other artists out there who use their blood, though from my knowledge they are women using their menstrual blood. While this is blood art, my work will be a different kind of blood art, collected with blade and torn skin. I fully respect women using their menstrual blood in their art, blood is a powerful tool and anyone who uses it has my respect.
The blood in these works is my own, collected with a knife (I am certainly no "emo", I do not do this for attention or so that "I can finally feel something", I do this for art. The blood is an expression, it is a medium. My knife is my brush, my blood is my paint). I may include photos of my blood "extraction process" so that others can follow on with experimenting with blood. If anyone else is currently using blood (menstrual or otherwise, as long as it's your own of course, taking others is weak in my opinion) I'd love to hear from you, share info/experiences etc.
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Angsty 
seriously boy, you need to seek help from professional help with this.. and attacking another blood artist for not wanting to dig into their own flesh like you do just shows there are some severe mental issues there...
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There are no dreams, no honor
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the due that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice -LOVELESS, Genesis R.
By being exposed to pain, you become tougher. What doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. While some people say that's bullshit, I know that it's true. It's not that you don't feel that pain it's just that it's less of a shock to you. Also, when a scar is fully healed it is tougher than normal skin. If I cut across my knuckles and fingers and started boxing then my hands would be tougher.
I know that I need to improve on my blood art, I've never claimed to be a good artist, though I am trying to improve. Thanks for the confidence boost, and support! Comparing my latest pieces to my first works, I think I've improved, and I plan on continuing that.
Being a man. That's a big topic, what it means to be a man. It comes down to the individual really. I think real men should be strong, tough, honourable. When people say "real men don't cut themselves", trust me when I say that blood art makes you tough. Being exposed to pain allows you to become used to it. Next time you're punched it hurts less because in comparison, the knives hurt more when you cut too deep. Men who are afraid of pain, of conflict, of facing their problems face-to-face, one-on-one are not real men. My blood art has made me stronger and I'm grateful for it. That's my view, you can have yours.
Mental state? Oh, so much to say.
You think you can just say "obviously the cutting isn't for the 'art' as blood art can be done through the blood of already dead animals". Out of all the abuse I receive over blood art, assumptions like this are the things that piss me off the most. You have no idea, you just look at it, make up your own mind, decide that your views are fact. You didn't even ask me if this was true, didn't even wonder if maybe what you thought was wrong. Don't assume you know me. I use my own because a) I can become stronger, b) It's not right to take what isn't yours (not just literally, I don't use the lives of other creatures to create my work. God has given life, I have no right to take it away), c) You have to sacrifice to create artwork, some sacrifice time and money, I choose to sacrifice life.
You're so close-minded. You assume that because I believe in God, I am a Christian? You don't know me, don't assume that I fit into your preconceived ideas about me. "If god is a merciful as people claim him to be he wouldn't call them home by burning them alive or having them die a slow painful death" My God, the non-Christian one that I believe in, wants all of humanity dead, including myself. God makes us suffer, for we sin, abuse the world that we are given. Not the "traditional" Christian sins either, just existing is a sin, we breathe in the air, drink the water. Those are sins in my belief. We have no right to exist while we mine, log, pollute, poison, hunt etc. How can you judge me when you don't know me? Kindly don't make any more assumptions about me, and I'd advise against insulting my religious beliefs and calling them BS. That's not right (why, I'd say it's not honourable to do that).
My suffering has nothing to do with other people suffering. I don't know where you got the idea that I thought they were linked. "Long term permanent harm" I refuse medicine and surgery, I trust in my own body to heal. If I die, I die. If I become stronger from what I do, then I become stronger. I don't understand what you're saying about depression and mental illness. I cut because I need blood (My blood, don't jump on this) for my artwork, not because of any other reason. If others self-harm because of those reasons, that's their business and I have no right to judge them or label them as emos or anything else. I do this so that the idea of blood art and cutting is less about stigmas and prejudice, while also pushing boundaries of what art is. You might not understand, but don't assume that you do.
Professional help? I can get the blood out fine by myself thanks. Don't need a nurse or doctor.
"Attacking another blood artist for not wanting to dig into their own flesh like you do just shows there are some severe mental issues there..." My God, you think you can diagnose people as mentally ill and not just by what you read about them on the internet. Yes, I had a go at Casey, I don't deny that. But how the fuck do you just say to yourself "he argued with him, therefore he's clinically insane." Out of everyone who's insulted, questioned me over this you're the one that has actually pissed me off. You don't know me, you have no right just labeling me as something I'm not because it's what you think.
I had a go at Casey, because he acted tough, like he was a mafia, a real man or something. He was friends with serial killers, painted portraits of them, made freak show sculptures of a kitten that looked like it was run over. He acted like he was tougher than everyone, like he thought he was more disturbed and that made him better than everybody else. And then I learn he used the blood of rattlesnakes for his first dozen paintings, got the blood off some freaks out in the desert and only now does he use his own. But wait! He doesn't do it himself, he gets a nurse to take it out of him instead. He acted tough, when I go through far more pain than he does. I told him that and went spastic. The guy acts like an angsty 16 year old missing his pot because his parents confiscated it off him. You'd think that a 30-something year old guy wouldn't act like a child at a little criticism. Does he think he's not going to be questioned/insulted/mocked? The guys a blood artist, he needs to get used to criticism. Because I know I have.
If you feel that you must reply, please don't make any more assumptions concerning beliefs or mental health. Don't insult someone's religious views either, bad move. You're welcome to your opinion, but remember to respect mine.
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Life's cheap, I'm just making myself that little bit more expensive.
We live as cattle our entire lives. We are born into a crowded, sterile, doomed world, a life fulfilled only by existence, while we wait to be called up to the meat trough.
1) cutting is associated with many mental disorders ie: depression, bipolar, borderline personality disorder and many more. they are the first signs to those mental disorders.
2) i read your comments to another user about not taking blood if you are injured "People who need blood, are in accidents or something, well God has decided that they need to die. I'm certainly not going to defy God..." i never once said you were christian (even though you call god god which only a few religions do) i would have actually pegged you for a Jehovah's witness (cause the no blood thing) except i know they wouldn't allow what you do.. so i left it open since you yourself said that god decided they needed to die.
3) real men.. real men.. god no wonder we all think men are idiots. cutting yourself if not making yourself stronger.. all you are doing is creating scar tissue which has no nerve endings in them anymore. (aka no more pain gets registered to the brain) there is a reason you are supposed to feel pain it tells you something is wrong with your body or you have past your limits. to say hurting yourself makes you stronger is the biggest bull shit i have heard and i'm ex military where we just laugh at that. i broke my hand and just laughed it off.. i had never broken a bone before in my life and i was already strong enough to not care about that pain. i didn't have to sit there and break my hand over and over again to make myself stronger.
a real man doesn't have to hurt himself to become stronger, he can fight past the pain first time (and really scars are a pretty big turn off)
and you claim to not use medication..what do you use to clean your blade and wounds to keep from getting infected?
wanna know something funny.. i just showed this conversation to my mother who suffers from many of the mental disorders associated with cutting (she used to cut as well) and she said you had mental problems..and this coming from an mental person herself!
when i said seek professional help.. i meant mental help.. cause you need it (and that is why people flame you.. not because you do blood art.. but because you see it as perfectly alright to take a blade to your own skin for it)
and this will be my last response..
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There are no dreams, no honor
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the due that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice -LOVELESS, Genesis R.
You make a big post on my deviant, I respond, giving my views on the topics that you mentioned. You then reply by saying that you only read about a quarter of it?
"I love the Mona Lisa, though I've only ever seen a quarter of it."
"That guy's an idiot, when I only know a quarter of why people think that he is one." Is what I'm hearing from you. You're not open to views that differ from your own, you can't respect people who see the world from a different perspective than your own. Don't say that you do, because then you'd be a hypocrite. "i think i only bothered to read a quarter of that as most of it seemed to be complete and utter rambling and alot more assumption about shit on your part." Why bother responding if you don't know what you're replying to?!
What I said about being a man, notice that I phrased it as "I believe..." and presented it as my opinion. Though you're right about the lose of nerve endings, obviously why pain doesn't register. "Holy crap! Have you got a medical degree or something? You're so smart *giggle*." You're a fucking idiot who thinks that trivial knowledge, that most people, know is impressive.
Cutting is not always based on a mental illness, though it can be. Did you figure that out for yourself? I have never said that it's based purely on mental disorders. It could be argued that having a soul is a mental disorder as we all have issues, limitations and struggles. But this reply isn't about philosophy, so I'll leave that alone.
You said that I said God was merciful, which I never did. I have only heard Christians say that. Only religions (Christian off-shoots, Islam, Judaism, etc) might say it too, I don't know. But you assumed that I'm a faith that addresses my higher power as "God". Either way, you shouldn't just assume that I'm of one of these religions when I say God. What did I tell you about assumptions?
You're views on what makes a man, are your own. I don't ask you to agree with them, just respect them. What the hell has this got to do with the military? Did you just get bored and decide to throw that in there? I've only ever seen that kind of random inclusion in essays written by kids with ADD. Congratulations on your literary success! Celebrate with some blood art! I can see that you've voiced your views on what makes a man, they're your own and it's not right to deny someone their view. So I'll just not say anything. If I respect your views, you can respect mine. What the hell? "i had never broken a bone before in my life and i was already strong enough to not care about that pain. i didn't have to sit there and break my hand over and over again to make myself stronger." Do not know that breaking a bone makes it weaker? What I do reduces pain, what you're saying I do is a) wrong, b) going to weaken you, c) chicks dig scars way more than they dig guys with plaster casts on. How're you going to go with them with that thing on your arm? Why you put that in there, I have no idea, you clearly have a low attention span and your logic and train of thought break down readily, leading you to lead off on a tangent like the military or broken hands.
If you read the blog, I clearly state that I use boiling water to kill the bacteria. Just because we're in the 21st century doesn't mean we need antibiotics for ever little thing. Wounds? Leave them and let my immune system work it out. People seem to forget that it's there for our survival, but I'm hardly getting it infected on purpose, not an idiot.
You show your DA posts to your mother? LOL, I can't imagine why you'd do that, even if she is mentally ill. And you're trusting a mentally ill person to say to another that they're mentally ill only from what you know in a single DA post? That's stupid. Mentally ill people aren't reliable, you can't analyse someone off of so little, she isn't qualified as a psychiatrist or psychologist. You're one of those people that thinks they know everything after hearing only a little bit about it aren't you?
And professional help, I knew what you intended, as you're about the 20th person to say that to me I figured I'd ignore it. I don't see anything wrong with what I do, you do because of your views. Just because you view something as wrong doesn't make it so. Was the holocause a bad thing? Not necessarily, some people think that it was a good thing. Just because you think that something is good/bad doesn't make it so either way. People flame me because I question everything about them. I do things they think is wrong. How do people act to rapists? With hate, because they think that it's wrong(as do I, just an example). While it isn't as serious for my situation, it's the same idea. It's something they think is wrong, and they want to defend what they believe. Not because I may or may not have a mental disorder. Gee, you really haven't got any logic do you?
If you reply, that's cool. If not then this is my last too. I'm not wasting time chasing up an argument with someone like you, who assumes everything and thinks that they know everything about me because of what their mentally ill mother said.
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Life's cheap, I'm just making myself that little bit more expensive.
We live as cattle our entire lives. We are born into a crowded, sterile, doomed world, a life fulfilled only by existence, while we wait to be called up to the meat trough.